Posts Tagged ‘By the fire’

Pieces That Don’t Fit

This is the last of our ‘By the fire’ ramblings I’ll be posting. We all feel like the world crumbles down around us but when you spend some time with true friends, you’re reminded how brilliant life is despite all the confusion.

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I need a moment … just one moment

To reflect on me. To cut through the bullshit.

And see my face. Person staring back at me is a phantom

Never saw those dark eyes before

Where did they come from? What did I dissolve into?

 

Tossing and turning, dreams that just won’t stop

Decoding my emotions, why are there no instructions?

If I could only wake up to see the dawn

Everything I overheard, just pieces that don’t fit

 

I need a moment… just one moment

To reflect on me. To cut through the bullshit.

And see my face. Person staring back at me is a phantom

Never saw those dark eyes before

Where did I come from? What am I dissolving into?

 

Ducking under the covers, burry my head in a corner

Wishing I could remember or at least forget.

Stuck in limbo, fighting with my pillow

Touching on the truth but not quite there, yet

 

I need a moment … just one moment

To reflect on me. To cut through the bullshit.

And see my face. Person staring back at me is a phantom

Never saw those dark eyes before

How long will they stay with me? What will I dissolve into?

 

Kicking off the duvet, borrow my teddy’s courage

Don’t know anymore than yesterday. I’m still me

Maybe it doesn’t matter, coz I can’t let it. I won’t let it

It’s the smell of success that trumps the stench of doubt

 

I’ll take a moment… just one moment

To reflect on me. To cut through the bullshit. (Be honest)

And see my face. Person staring back at me is just me

Never saw through those deep eyes before

When did I become so tall? Let the puzzle dissolve too

 

It’s the pieces that don’t fit

That makes life worth the effort….

It’s worth the effort…

I’m worth the effort

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Thank you guys for sharing this weekend with me. The lack of sleep was totally worth it! You’re the best!

Keep the faith

Obviously being friends means that we’re constantly giving each other advice. This little thing is about how that advice isn’t always easy to accept or take, no matter how well you intend it.

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We all have choices

But I fail to see the truth in that phrase

In moments like these everyone spews

They give their two cents and a little bit more

Telling us about the greater plan

‘Keep faith’ ‘All will be revealed’

 

What if I fail miserably?

What if I’m just not strong enough?

What if I let you down?

Shouldn’t living be simple?

Shouldn’t life be grand?

 

We all have choices

It’s such an empty phrase

Right now I fear my choice has been made

You say you understand but you really can’t

Stop playing wise-men; I’m not listening when you say

‘Keep faith’ ‘All will be revealed’

 

What if I just don’t want to?

What if everything will be different?

What if I turn my back on you?

Shouldn’t living have more options?

Shouldn’t life be sacred?

 

We all have choices

I question the truth in that phrase

Today I see their expressed sorrows

Their offer to help is like a slap in the face

Wanting to fix it all by myself

‘Keep faith’ ‘All will be revealed’

 

What if I can’t do it?

What if I want to run instead?

What if I let you down?

Shouldn’t things be clearer?

Shouldn’t life make sense?

 

We all have choices

Analyzing the truth in that phrase

In the hardest of times we need to come together

Don’t need to talk in proverbs

Just be there and share the prayers

‘Keep faith’ ‘All will be revealed’

 

Maybe it takes a little longer

Maybe my plans have to change

Maybe you know better

Maybe living is enough

Maybe life gets better

 

We all have choices

Remembering the truth in that phrase

My true strength comes out today

All of you did your part to get me here

Thank you for being stronger

‘Keep faith’ ‘All will be revealed’

 

So what if I fail

So what if it’s different

So what as long as you love me

So what if things could be clearer

So what! Coz life will get better

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Still

A few of my friends and I had a girls-night that turned into a girls weekend and even though we had loads of fun, we also took time to reflect on recent events and somewhere around 2am, just sitting outside by the fire, we wrote down a few things. This is one of them…

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Not in the mood to really talk about it

Just wanna lie here and die

Torn into a million pieces

How long can I still cry?

 

You let me go and I’m still falling

Still in silence; lying still

Still still; so still

 

Never noticed the noise in the distance

Draw the curtains, just to see the wall

Inside my castle, rather a dungeon

Embraced by darkness

 

You let me go and I’m still falling

Still in silence; lying still

Still still; so still

 

All this anger, totally wasted

Hugging my pillow, looking for warmth

Alone on my island of feathers and springs

Can you see my SOS?

 

You let me go and I’m still falling

Still in silence; lying still

Still still; so still

 

Touching the ceiling I can’t break through

The height is hasty my teddies will catch me

Plummet to the earth as it shock me

Time to wake up and face the world

 

You let me go and I’m still falling

Still in silence; lying still

Still still; so still

 

Whisper through the silence and scream through the darkness…

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