Remember that day, when you asked me if I was ok
I said I was fine and honestly I felt perfectly alive
But I said that the day would arrive
When I wasn’t alright and then I’d come to you
Well that’s today… Today I’m not ok
I just don’t know if I know what to say
In all fairness I should be fine today
Nothing really logical about all of this
Yet I can’t keep the tears inside
My emotions: a rollercoaster I’m too tired to ride
But it finds me anyway, nowhere left to hide
Remember that day, when you asked me if I was ok
I said I was fine and honestly I felt perfectly alive
But I said that the day would arrive
When I wasn’t alright and then I’d come to you
Well that’s today… Today I’m not ok
Don’t know how to get this conversation underway
It’s been so long since you asked me if I was ok
I’d like to pretend I don’t really mean this
Maybe if I ignore my feelings they’d recede
Suppress and depress seem to be on the same speed
Scribble thoughts, crush them and throw away the seed
Remember that day, when you asked me if I was ok
I said I was fine and honestly I felt perfectly alive
But I said that the day would arrive
When I wasn’t alright and then I’d come to you
Well that’s today… Today I’m not ok
I’d like to sit here and pretend everything’s just gay
Somehow my imagination won’t let me stay
Have to face my demons; to deal with this
Can’t do this on my own this time
Been holding my head above water as I mime
‘I need help’ but can’t seem to ask out of rhyme
Remember that day, when you asked me if I was ok
I said I was fine and honestly I felt perfectly alive
But I said that the day would arrive
When I wasn’t alright and then I’d come to you
Well that’s today… Today I’m not ok
The veil of sanity I created can’t veto the doom ray
Ready to lighten the load right where I lay
Must start somewhere and the score is this
Incapable of letting it slide any longer
Have to fight my battles and hope I’ll get stronger
Please take my hand and show me how to conquer
I need you today because today I’m not ok…